Friday, August 1, 2008
♥ 16:33 Days had passed, my life still have to move on no matter what had happened for those days. CORRECT BOH?
Anyway, i've done a short quiz bout myself which i got the link on lihua's blog. ahahahahha. Some are sound true, so what do u all thk bout me?
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Ps: I wish to be as graceful as a swan.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
♥ 18:34 Psss psss readers, sorry for not updating my blog for these wks due to laziness. i do hope everyone hv enjoyed their days pleasantly.
29 July 08
That was the day i felt most devastated and empty mind.
I've lost a absolute and wonderful close friend, STKW. Actually, we had a small tiff for sometime but i nv imagined that i'd really lost him in my life.
We got to know each other thru a friend at a place name "AP". Soon, we exchanged no. I rem i was in sec2 and he was serving in ns as a medic. We got acquainted very well in short while and slowly we became close friends. Either i'm happy or unhappy, he will always be there for me whenever i need help or as an ear listener.
First, we just almost meet up everyday at "AP" with groups of his&my friends like talking craps and playing arnd together.
Second, when ex bf and i broke off on that nite, he accomp me for whole nite and of cos many days too.
Third, when i had a big quarrel with my sister or family frequently, he will encourage me stuffs like my family still care for me just need more communication with them and taught me to be more mature enough for stuffs like that.
Fourth, i'm always nagging him bout goin to his hse to eat his mum's speciality food which he often show off to me of his mum's cooks.
Fifth, again another serious break-off with ex bf whom he dislike e most as tat ex bf was really a rotten egg and also a thorn in my flesh. He was again beside with me all times no matter how busy he was.
Sixth, once before, 1 of my bff and i had a veri long cold war and misunderstanding which i've tried many times and times to call or msg her in order to save our friendship though failed to attempt at first and i was really depressed like hell. And he told me, "Friends do change while they are moving on with their life and they might not notice that. Since u've tried ur ways to save the friendship yet she got no actions with it, and might as well move on with ur own life. Don't worry, i'll still be one of ur close friends". After mths, she and i back on terms once again.
BUT NOW, the prob is both of us.
Out of sudden, i got a new bf, still in studies, he graduate successfully and got a new job.
Eventually, we stop chitchatting on phone, nv catch up with each other for long time but only chat in msn occassionally. I've started to grumble to myself that he had changed or wad blah blah blah... and decided to tell him hw i felt btwn our friendship.
Bout 2mths ago, i told him everything yet he told me that i'm the one who neglected him, nv meet up with him, got probs then look for him and added that one of our frene agreed that i've changed! I was furious to hear that as he seldom ask me to meet him or confide his probs to me yet he was the one who said i nv thought of him. I was angry and also upset in that case i've dropped the subject.
That day, i tried to msg him to discuss our prob again. i told him how i wish that we were like before, listen to my happiness and sorrows. he replied me that i was one sided friend, only take wad he can give and receive it but without giving him wad he wants as a friend. I've explained that i really don know that u got probs to confide to me all these while and how could he be so cruel to say that. he added that "Everything is too late for u to realise because he've done enough for this friendship, something no need to be said it also can be understood and he pointed out that its pointless to argue about this as it serves no purpose to him anymore. Though can't be close friends, we are still friends".
I just realised that I'm a lousy friend to him, but its too late. We are close friends for yrs yet u told me that we still can be 'friends' in a cold tone. I don't know i just cant accept it. Seriously, I nv blame him just blame myself for dragging the probs and nv solve it immediately. I thanked god for giving me a trustworthy close friend but he felt that i seemed to take him for granted though in my heart is "I NV TAKE U FOR GRANTED". Slowly, i thought back that whenever he wanted to tell me something, i'm always talk before him. I admit that i've neglected u as my close friend, I'M SORRY.
He said, "Things you lost got to find it again, in order to have it again".
ps: But how can i find another u? U are who u are, STKW, i can't find another to replace u anymore.