Thursday, September 11, 2008
♥ 14:12 ENDOFEXAMS!
I shld be elated! But.. not really. I just feel uncomfortable, feeling mixture of bittersweet.
Ytd went to studiowu, then off to steamboat with Nana, Ruifeng, Sharon, Joanne and Sayhui. We enjoyed the food cos it's really scrumptious! Though laughing and joking arnd with friends, but in my heart and mind feel bits and bits of emptiness.
The probs of cos not lie in them, is in me. Actually I'm having this kind of troubleshot since mths ago. Major probs about my rs matter and also with a dear friend. Rs matter probably no purpose to say anymore.
For a dear friend, I must.
"I feel I'm a spare-tyre to u. Whenever u need a ear listener or ur another friend not besides u, then u will rem me. Seriously, I'm happy to be ur listener but somehow I felt an insignificant place in ur friends list. The feeling is like so complicated that cant explain once and for all in words. I mind of this as I value u as my dear friend. Like though I've placed u as a valuable friend of mine, doesn't mean that u have to but we've known for yrs and been very closed for yrs, of cos I do hope to be ur valuable friend in ur heart like how I do. I know I'm being selfish in a way but hope everything is my oversensitive way of thinking. And one of these days u'll prove to me that I'm just thking too much."
Ps: It was written in the stars that we should meet and be friends always.